Tonight I am struggling with whether or not I want to continue to be a foster parent. I know that it has been a great opportunity and that many young lives have been changed by Christ through this ministry, but today was the first time that the thought "is this worth it" came into my head. I am at the same time convicted by the message from the past few sermons at church... the basic idea being "where do you draw the line as to how much of your life you will give to God", or, "how much is too much when God is asking", or, "Is there supposed to be a line" or, "enough is enough, or is it?". I never want to be the person who says no to God. Today I feared for my safety....is that too much? I guess I could say....Laura, you knew this was dangerous work before they even started training you for it.... Today I saw the work of 12 months basically melt away in just a few minutes....
Frustration, despair, hopelessness, doubt....
Why God, why did you call me?
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