(Picture taken at Sandy Creek, in Bridge, OR 4-24-06 by Laura Jean)
I don't even know what I want to say. I know I want to speak something, but no words seem to be right. Well, I guess I could tell you what's going on with me, and then perhaps words will find me.
I have applied to Multnomah Bible College to finish my Music Ministry degree program (this is where God called me to while I was a freshman in college). I have not been accepted yet, but hope that I will be by Monday so that I will be eligible to recieve specific financial aid (a grant given by the school) that is being disbursed Tuesday. We are just waiting for two more transcripts to arrive. Yay!
[a cool side note here. I drove over to the school today to drop off some more paper work. While I was there, two of my transcripts arrived. It was just like a life message from God saying, "See, I'm lookin out for you. I just wanted you to be here to see it."]
So, if you will keep that in prayer, that's be awesome.
My thoughts aren't all that much clearer now. As you can imagine, my life will be changing a bunch in the next month. Perhaps that is why my head is swimming. Other changes include my mother planning to move to Washington...Seattle...to live with my little brother. I will no longer be a foster mom (which I have mixed feelings about) and I will live on a side of town that I am largely unfamiliar with.
I feel like I am about to be alone. I know this is foolish and that I have many friends that will also be attending the same school and I will still have my church...Even knowing this, my heart aches. I feel the despair of having my closest family so far from me. It's been hard enough just having Mark in Seattle, but to have them both there is a little overwhelming. They are my support. They are my confidants. They are my prayer warriors.
I know God will bring someone to stand in the gap, I just am having trouble convincing my heart. My mind believes it and I think that will have to be good enough until my heart figures it out too.
Please don't forget me...I am going to need you like never before.
Thanks y'all
2 comments:
Laura, I just discovered your blog. I am mostly not commenting on anyone's blogs right now. Brock and I are on a "blog fast", even though I blogged a bit this weekend, mainly because I wanted to speak out about our last sortie and some thoughts about it. Tomorrow starts a 2 week time of fasting for the Orthodox, called the "Theotokos Fast" and I am going to try my hardest to keep it silent and free. I just wanted to say thanks again for praying for Brock and me, and I will remember you as well in your transitions right now. It's also a blessing that the yearly commemoration of Jesus' transfiguration on Mount Tabor occurs this next Sunday, the 6th. For once, Jesus allowed His three closest disciples to see Him as He really is. May this be granted to us more and more, so that we can get through anything that life throws at us, because "we have seen the Lord!" (John 20:24)
Yay for commemoration. Thanks for posting and encouraging and praying. I am so grateful; God is so faithful. He provides for every need. Enjoy your time off in fasting.
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